A cup of hot ocha

Pict cr @nitachan_desu

I love my cup of hot ocha
It makes the loneliness fade piece by pieces
It is gone but I still feel the hatred
I know there is no perfect life
No perfect me either
But I don't want to be this clueless
Of what I'm doing in my own life
Why should I search for happines in a materialistic things such as crafts , skin care  products or extra pricey food?
Why should I learn how to be happy based on someone vlog?
Why should I insist to do the job that I have been sick of for the damn long time ago just because I don't have the gut to starve and make someone else worry?
Why should I waste too many times on something irrelevant?
I don't want to think about these anymore
I want to change my ocha into the cold one
Let all the things go with the flow
Just like my ocha, sometimes it is good to have the hot one, the other times I feel to drink the cold
So that my life, there are upside down, happy and sad, hot and cold moments
But better to not being hot blooded and cold hearted at the same time